Birthday girl!! It's not my birthday ...

Birthday girl!! It's not my birthday yet but it's coming up soon. In about four months I will no longer be fifteen. Looking back it makes me uncomfortable to think how fast time has passed. I don't remember much about when I was a baby.I don't even remember much about when I was in first grade. I wish I did. I'm going on sixteen and I don't think I'm changing much.I don't know what my parents think of me but I don't see any changes. I felt a slight change when I was turning fifteen but not this year. When I turned fifteen I was supposed to have a big party. I was supposed to spend a year planning it. When my parents brought up the question "What do you want to do for your birthday?", there were only five months left to plan. I was really mad and I ended up not having a big party or a small party. None.
A few months after my fifteenth birthday I wanted to plan something for my sixteenth birthday. That didn't happen. There are four months left until my birthday and nothing is planned. I hope my coming up birthday doesn't end up like my last birthday. I guess I don't really like asking for much and I'm a very shy person so of course I haven't asked anybody about it. My mom knows how I felt about my last birthday. I don't really want something big but I do want to celebrate it. I don' want a gathering of just my family, even though I would put them before anybody, but I want it to be more than that. I want this birthday to be different from all the other ones but I know what to expect.
I don't ask for much so I hope I do get at least half of what I asked for.

Update

Falling behind. Maybe Just a little bit but if this lasts any longer then it will be bad. I'm doing good in all my classes except math. I do all my work in class, I do all my homework yet I still have a low grade. I need to bring it up before the semester is over or my parents will be upset. I will be upset too but I try not to be so hard on myself. My parents really push me to do better in school. I have no idea how many talks I had with my parents about my education. Sometimes I think they are to hard on me but I understand why they do it. I don't like it sometimes. It's like they think that I don't care about my future.
School is not even that hard. Eight hours of it monday through friday. It's just like work except we don't get paid for it. My parents always tell me "Your education is your payment" I guess that's right but I don't like it when they say that. They understand that school is like work and yet when they are tired from their work they say that they are more tired than we are.
My younger brother goes to my same school. At first I thought I would hate it but it's not as bad as I expected. I don't like it though. He is mybrother and I love him but I don't like having to see him all day. Sometimes you need a day away from your siblings. Last year was good. I only had to see him when I got home from school. It was better like that. This year I have to see him in the morning, at school, and after school. I don't really get time away from him except for weekends when my dad takes them out. Sometimes we need some time apart. I think he thinks the same about me.I'm not saying I hate seeing him so much but I'd like it if he went to another school.
Life right now is really good. I have the best friends, I have the perfect family, and I'm just loving life.