My computer is getting on my nerves.I...

My computer is getting on my nerves.I should say my Internet is getting on my nerves. Everything is blocked. Even blogger is blocked. It say it's unsafe. That's what's on my mind. Another thing that's is on my mind is my dentist appointment tomorrow. My dentist has been telling me that I need braces. I really don't want them. If I get them I will have them until senior year. People tell me that they really hurt. They are also really expensive. I only need braces because of my over bite. I can live with an over bite. People don't even notice my over bite until I tell them.

I'm scared that they will make me look a lot different. My brother and sister also need braces but the dentist said that my case is more urgent. I don't think it's that important. My dad and I agree that I shouldn't get braces. Last time I was at the dentist I saw a pamphlet that said something about your teeth having an effect on child birth. I don't know if that's true or not but it scares me. I'm not getting braces because of that pamphlet though. They said I would need them for three years and I would have to wear a retainer every night for the rest of my life.

I also have a baby shower to go to. It's my mom's older sister's baby shower. After fourteen years she is having another baby. I don't think it's going to be easy for her to raise another child. She's not so young anymore. I can't say I hate the father of that child but I very much dislike him. I guess I have to accept that he helped my auntie give me another cousin but there is not much good to say about him. He is not the real father of any of my other cousins. He is just my auntie's boyfriend. I don't like the way he treats my cousins that have to live with him. When he comes down to visit he tries to at all nice but my cousins tell me everything.

Other than those few things everything is pretty much the same.

I had never really thought about blog...

I had never really thought about blogging. Now that Mr.Sutherland introduced it to me I liked it. I enjoy it. I like that I reflect a lot on what I think about. It has not been hard to find a topic to write about every week. I don't think I will stop blogging after this school year is over. I probably won't do it as often but I will still do it.
It's very interesting to me to see what people write about. I like to see what people think about.Usually people who blog write about stuff that they wouldn't normally tell people. I like it. I know I write about stuff that wouldn't normally come up in a casual conversation.Maybe after this school year is over I'll have more interesting things to write about. I want to know where this experience goes.
I have never been much of a writer. Writing was something that I have always had trouble with. Blogging has showed me that I have improved as a writer. I find it easier to get my point across. I guess it was just the topics that gave me trouble. Before, the words to explain myself just never came to me. Throughout my blog I noticed that ideas came to me faster. Before, I would get stuck all the time, such as when I was writing this post. It's still hard sometimes but I'm getting used to it. Hopefully it gets easier as I go along. My vocabulary has expanded and I think of that as a skill that can help me throughout the rest of my life.

I like that blog posts are due every week. I usually write about what has happened between my last blog post and the one the that I would be writing at the moment. I find current events about my life easier to write about. I love reflecting too. I like looking back on the good times. Earlier I wrote about memories, which I love thinking about. They say You can't know where you're going until you know where you've been. I'm not completely sure about that yet, but I do know that what I have been through in the past has made me who I am today.

Blogging has been a way to let out what I have been thinking about. It can be a place to write about my troubles though I don't like putting my troubles out there. Blogging has also been a way to figure out what I truly care about. My blog has shown that my first priority is my family. Blogging has helped me understand myself more as a person.

Blogging has not changed how I think but it has changed the way that I write. I find writing a lot easier. I correct my mistakes. I go back and try to make whatever I am working on as good as I can. I has definitely changed the way I think about writing. I used to think that writers had the most difficult job, but now I see that it was only in my head. It is very easy to write make believe things, or memoirs, or any kind of true story. The only way writing can be hard is when you are given rules about what to put in, what to leave out, or any other boundaries.
I get my ideas for blogging from any current events in my life. I write about whatever is on my mind at that moment. My inspiration comes mostly from my family. Sometimes it's not directly about them. Sometimes It's about something that I know they would be upset about, something that would make them happyor something that directly involves them. I think Family is the most important part of my life. They are a big part of my blog even if they don't know it. Most of my blog posts are just updates. They can be updates of my schoolwork, myself, or family. I had never really thought about where my inspiration comes from. I guess I was just blogging for a grade. It's sometimes a hard question to answer. Even though I already said that my inspiration comes from family it might not be the full answer. Now this question has got me thinking. Maybe my inspiration comes from something else. Maybe it's because I know that I have to do it for a grade. The ideas for my blog just come to me. Whatever I am thinking about at that moment, that is what I write about. When we are in the lab and my friends and I are talking, they give me ideas also. Sometimes we write about the same things. I wonder where they get their inspiration from. Blogging has opened up my mind to new ideas. I wrote a blog about the future and where we are going now. I have never talked about that topic to anybody. It just doesn't come up in conversation. I think about things like that all the time but I don't talk about it. Ideas don't always come naturally to me. Sometimes I just sit there and look at a blank page for a while until I find a topic that I think I can finish my assignment with.

It's not always so difficult to find your inspiration. I know what part of my inspiration is but I still have to find out where the other part comes from. I will keep blogging for the rest of this year, not only because it's for my grade but because I enjoy doing it. I think it will be fun to see how many people blog after the year is over. I wonder if anybody will keep blogging even after high school. I think I will have a lot more interesting things ti talk about when I'm out of high school. I think that's when I will be able to do whatever I want and start a life on my own. That will be inspiration enough to keep blogging. I think I will keep my word and continue blogging. I would definitely recommend it for some one who wants to get to know themselves more, someone who wants to put their ideas out there, or someone who has nothing else to do but say what's on their mind. Right now my goal is to continue blogging for a grade but I'm sure that my goal will change at the end of the year. I will continue blogging because I enjoy it.

New. There has been a lot of new thin...

New. There has been a lot of new things going on since my last post.
I have a new cousin. His name is Cesar Octavio. He is one of the cutest babies I have ever seen. A lot of babies look ugly to me when they are first born but not this one. I have a feeling he is just going to get cuter too. I don't think his face is going to change much. My parents say that he looks a lot like one of his older sisters when she was a baby.
Another thing new is that my auntie, my cousin, and my great grandma are back from Mexico. My auntie and my cousin have only been gone for two months but I had not seen my great grandma in two years. I really missed all of them. Things seem a lot different in my grandma's house since they came back. Everybody seems a lot happier and it seems like they are always in a good mood. Hopefully the joy goes on for a while. The baby has really brought joy to the whole family. We had not had a baby in the family for about two years and everybody was excited for that. When I found out that my auntie was pregnant I was really excited but the feeling is different now that she had it. I'm just really happy. My uncle is really happy too. It is his first boy. After three girls finally a boy.
Everyone is so happy that my great grandmother is back. My grandma made some calls and in a few hours there is a crowd of people at my grandma's house to see my great grandmother. It is an interesting experience to say hello to so many people that you have never met before and find out that you are somehow related to them. That is what happened last Sunday. Next week there are going to be more visitors but I actually know these. My grandma's sister is coming from Fresno, my auntie is coming from San Jose, and another auntie is coming from Vacaville. It's going to be fun. All my cousins from my moms side are going to be there. I can't wait.
I love times like this when you know for sure that everyone in the family has a reason to be happy.

Birthday girl!! It's not my birthday ...

Birthday girl!! It's not my birthday yet but it's coming up soon. In about four months I will no longer be fifteen. Looking back it makes me uncomfortable to think how fast time has passed. I don't remember much about when I was a baby.I don't even remember much about when I was in first grade. I wish I did. I'm going on sixteen and I don't think I'm changing much.I don't know what my parents think of me but I don't see any changes. I felt a slight change when I was turning fifteen but not this year. When I turned fifteen I was supposed to have a big party. I was supposed to spend a year planning it. When my parents brought up the question "What do you want to do for your birthday?", there were only five months left to plan. I was really mad and I ended up not having a big party or a small party. None.
A few months after my fifteenth birthday I wanted to plan something for my sixteenth birthday. That didn't happen. There are four months left until my birthday and nothing is planned. I hope my coming up birthday doesn't end up like my last birthday. I guess I don't really like asking for much and I'm a very shy person so of course I haven't asked anybody about it. My mom knows how I felt about my last birthday. I don't really want something big but I do want to celebrate it. I don' want a gathering of just my family, even though I would put them before anybody, but I want it to be more than that. I want this birthday to be different from all the other ones but I know what to expect.
I don't ask for much so I hope I do get at least half of what I asked for.

Update

Falling behind. Maybe Just a little bit but if this lasts any longer then it will be bad. I'm doing good in all my classes except math. I do all my work in class, I do all my homework yet I still have a low grade. I need to bring it up before the semester is over or my parents will be upset. I will be upset too but I try not to be so hard on myself. My parents really push me to do better in school. I have no idea how many talks I had with my parents about my education. Sometimes I think they are to hard on me but I understand why they do it. I don't like it sometimes. It's like they think that I don't care about my future.
School is not even that hard. Eight hours of it monday through friday. It's just like work except we don't get paid for it. My parents always tell me "Your education is your payment" I guess that's right but I don't like it when they say that. They understand that school is like work and yet when they are tired from their work they say that they are more tired than we are.
My younger brother goes to my same school. At first I thought I would hate it but it's not as bad as I expected. I don't like it though. He is mybrother and I love him but I don't like having to see him all day. Sometimes you need a day away from your siblings. Last year was good. I only had to see him when I got home from school. It was better like that. This year I have to see him in the morning, at school, and after school. I don't really get time away from him except for weekends when my dad takes them out. Sometimes we need some time apart. I think he thinks the same about me.I'm not saying I hate seeing him so much but I'd like it if he went to another school.
Life right now is really good. I have the best friends, I have the perfect family, and I'm just loving life.

New

Every time some one asks me "What's new?" I always say nothing. Even though there is always something. Maybe not something big but something. I am not the kind of person that tells everybody everything. I keep to myself a lot. Sometimes I don't even tell my closest friends what's going on in my life. People always tell me what's going on with them though. I don't know why I'm like that. I like enjoy listening to people.
Well there are new things. One thing that's going on is that my auntie left to Mexico without telling anybody. She took my little cousin with her and I don't know when I am going to see them again. I miss them. They've been gone for about two months now and I haven't talked to any of them at all. I was really mad when I found out that she had left. The fact that she didn't tell anybody made me think of her as a child running away. Of course her husband knew about it but her other two sons did not.
Another thing is that I might be moving. It isn't official so I didn't tell anybody. I really don't want to move though. I have lived in Alameda for 5 years now and I have many real friends that I don't want to leave. I had told my parents that if I started high school ere then I was going to stay to finish it here. I don't know how many more reasons I'll have to give to convince them not to move or to at least make them wait two more years.
There was something else going on but I fixed it. There were to men that wanted me to study their religion. They were Mormon. I am catholic. They asked me if it was OK if they told me about their religion. I did not want to be rude so I said OK. A few days ago I called them and told them that I was not interested in learning about their religion anymore. It was so hard. I was so nervous. I didn't want to do it but I knew I had to. They were going to go to my grandma's house every saturday at 4 to meet with us if I didn't call them. Now it is all resolved and I'm done with that.I don't have to worry about any more problems with those guys.

Specific

This post is like a summary and analysis of my blog. In my first post my goal was to learn to explain what I think with enough detail. Well I think I'm doing better with that. I changed my subjects a lot and I noticed that I tend to think a lot about the future. What's going to happen or what I want to happen. I didn't think it would turn out like this. I thought I would end up writing about feelings or something like that. It was interesting to remember what I was thinking about when I wrote the posts. It didn't seem like I changed a lot so far. Maybe it's the subjects that I write about. Maybe they are not really opinions to me but facts.
I didn't think I would be able to do this post but it's easier than I thought. Seeing and reading over the few blog posts that I have done made me wonder if it would be easier to write about other subjects. I doubt it. I like blogging now. It's nothing that I would've thought of doing before but I like it. It seems like something I might keep doing even after I don't have to. Reading over everything made me think about my personality. I write about these things but they would never come up in my conversations. What I write about is very different from what I talk about. Writing this blog was a good idea. It's easier for Mr. Sutherland and it's a lot of realizations for me.
Looking back it seems like writing these posts were very easy. One post every week is easy to handle. I'm going to try to change the subjects a little bit more just for a variety of different things to think about. Then after a few posts I would like to do another analysis like this and see how everything turns out.