Planet Pregancy by Linda Oatman High - Part 1

    Planet Pregnancy by Linda Oatman High is a book about something that has been happening a lot lately in the world. Teenage pregnancy. Sahara is only sixteen when she finds out she is pregnant.  Her world was turned upside down. Before she was "Miss social butterfly" now she "has crept into a cocoon". She used to ba happy all the time now it's the complete opposite. She doesn't feel like talking to anybody. She is completely confused. It didn't bother her when other people went through these things. She was happy that she wasn't going throught that. Now that it's her she doesn't know what to do. She doesn't care what she looks like anymore but she does wonder what people say about her.
    Being Pregnant at 16 is not something out of the ordinary these days. Maybe it happens by accident but it happens all the time. I wonder if all pregnant 16 year olds feel as down as Sahara. Sahara didn't want to tell anybody. Even though she knew that there were other people going through the same thing she didn't want this thing to happen to her.
    "The Dixie Queen will never be seen again. She's dead." I have no idea why she is feeling this bad. She made a choice and now she is having to deal with one of the consequences. The really bad thing is that she is not looking for support from anyone. She doesn't want to tell anybody, not even her best friend Ema. I think if I was acting all down like her everybody would immediately know that something was going on. Why hasn't anybody noticed? If she is usually so alive and happy then why hasn't anyone realized that she was acting different.
    "There's no free guidance in this situation. No easy answers. It's like cancer: something growing without my permission". I think the way Sahara is thinking about this is sick. She is comparing a child that's growing inside of her, to cancer. Maybe she should've thought things through a little more. Now she doesn't even want to talk to anyone about it because she is scared. She is scared of what they might say. Something I think that is also putting her down is thew fact that she doesn't really like the guy. I think that was her first mistake. I wonder who she'll end up talking to about her pregnancy. She can't hide it forever.

"A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks - Final Book Review

    "A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks is a true love story. The book is very confusing at first. You really don't know how someone can go from hating to falling in love in so little time. Well it wasn't really hating it was disliking that this girl was so nice. People disliked that she 3was so polite to them even when they were mean to her. No one really knew what her reasons were for being so happy all the time and nobody ever really bothered to ask either.

    Landon was a "bad" boy. He didn't really care what kind of trouble he got into. He wasn't very close to his father. It even seemed like he didn't like his father. His dad lived in Washington and only came by once in a while to visit Landon and his mother.I don't know why his father decided to make Landon grow up this way. To Landon his father was a little like a stranger. His father had a choice. Maybe if his father was there for him when he was little he wouldn't be such a bad kid, but then again if he wasn't such a bad kid he wouldn't have met Jamie.

    Jamie on the other hand was a very smart girl. Her father was a minister. Her mother died giving birth to her. She was as devoted to god as much as her father was. Later in the story you read that there were many reasons why Jamie should be upset and yet she was always happy. She always said that God had a plan for everybody. I'm guessing she knew what her plan was.

    When Landon first asked Jamie for help on his lines for the play, she warned him, "...promise that you won't fall in love with me...". He took it as a joke then. Then he thought he could never fall in love with a girl like Jamie. Somehow she knew he would. She used to tell him that she would pray for him. Later you find out that she didn't just wish him well. She prayed for him in different ways.

    The part of the book that was really sad for me was the part when she tells Landon that she is sick. At first Landon didn't know what she meant, he was thinking she meant something like a cold. He was wrong. When Jamie told him that she had Leukemia all Landon was thinking was,"...why didn't you tell me...". At first I didn't understand if he was saying that because he thought she was a waste of time or because maybe if she had told him sooner he could have done something to help her. I didn't understand at first why she would hide something like this. That's why she told him not to fall in love with her. Later it was clear that she didn't say anything because she didn't want people treating her different. Maybe if people knew though she would've treated her better. When the People in school found out what Jamie had, they all felt guilty. Jamie didn't know how much time she had left to live. That really scared Landon. He didn't know what to do. I wouldn't know either. Knowing that one of your loved ones is going to die and you can't do anything about it, it's so stressing. You just watch them day after day trying to help them but you see them getting worse. All you can do is let them go happy. You need to help them enjoy that last minutes or hours or days or weeks or months of their lives.

    What would you rather do? See them in pain day after day trying to keep them alive of let them die and rid them of all the pain. I have never been in a situation like this and I really hope I don't ever have to be in one. I wouldn't know what to do. I would be devastated. I only remember a few deaths in my family and there was nothing anyone could do to save them. There was no way to help them live longer either. Landon found a way to help Jamie. He was willing to do anything for her. In order to get the help and medication Jamie needed Landon needed to ask his father for help. It was something that Landon wouldn't ever really want to do but he did it for Jamie. She brought them closer. Even when Jamie was in really bad conditions she would find strength to talk to Landon. She would tell him not to worry. She told him that he was an Angel sent from god that brought her happiness. She told him that he changed her life.

    When Landon was listening to her all he wanted to do was cry. He always felt like there was something else he could do. As soon as he realized what that thing was, he didn't hesitate at all. He asked her to marry him. She of course said yes. Both Landon's parents and Jamie's father thought Landon was making a mistake. It wasn't that they didn't want him to marry Jamie it was that they felt that he was doing it just because she was going to die. Landon wasn't thinking that way at all. He was thinking that he really loved her and there would not be anyone else for him in the world as good as her. I think he made the right decision. In marriage he would form an infinite bond with Jamie that no one could break. His memories of her would stay strong. The ring on his finger would remind him of her every time he looked at. The ring would remind him of the most beautiful thing that happened to him. It would show him that no one could ever compare to Jamie.

    I loved how Nicholas Sparks incorporated the title into the book. The "...walk to remember" was when Jamie was walking down the aisle in church the day her and Landon got married. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who loves a good love story. This was my first time reading this book but I'm sure it won't be my last.

"A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks Part - 3 Review

    The third and final part of "A Walk To Remember" great. I loved the way things turned out, except the part when Jamie dies. I loved that a seventeen year old guy had his eyes opened by true love. He realized soon enough that he needed her. He did everything to try and save her. All he could do was help her stay alive longer and try to make her feel alive. He knew that there was nothing he could do to prevent her from passing away. He tried everything he could. Landon and his father weren't very close. He didn't like asking his father for anything. When Landon found out that Jamie was sick he went actually went and asked his father for help. Of course he didn't do it right away because his pride got in the way.
    Jamie did so much for Landon. She opened his eyes to the meaning of life. She helped him figure out exactly what he wanted in life. She even brought Landon and his father together. Landon realized this too I think. It didn't take long for him to understand that what he wanted with Jamie was a lot different then what he wanted with other girls.
    This is a situation that is not likely to happen to people at the age of seventeen. Boys have really changed over the years. They no longer care about anything else but looks. Many of them do care and look deeper into people but those are hard to find now a days. Jamie opened Landon's eyes to look deeper. He learned to understand why she is how she is.
    The part when Landon asked Jamie to marry him made my eyes watery. Jamie's father and Landon's parents thought that Landon was just going to marry Jamie to make her happy. They kept telling him that he didn't have to do it. He knew exactly why he was doing it. He truly loved Jamie. I think he just wanted to make a really strong bond between them before she moved on. I think he wanted something strong to bond them even after she was gone. I like how Nicholas Sparks put the title of the book in the story. The walk to remember was when Jamie walked down the aisle in the church on her wedding day. It was beautiful.
    I would recommend this book to anyone who loves love stories.

Schindler's List

 
    Schindler's list was a very good movie. The fact that Oskar Schindler saw himself as a criminal while everybody else saw him as a very good person, really got me thinking. The Holocaust was not a time of hope and yet Oskar brought that to people. The Holocaust will always be remembered. It is set as an example of what we should not let happen again. The hardest part for me to watch was when the mothers were being seperated from their children. Watching yur children being taken away from you and not being able to do anything about it has to be the worst thing in the world. It wasn't like they had any hope that they would be reunited. They knew that once they were taken away, they were gone forever.

    I wish I knew what was the main reason for Schindler to make Jews work for him in the first place. Was it because he knew what was going to happen to them otherwise or for his own profit? Throughout the movie you see that Oskar became a very well known person. He knew who to become friends with. The most powerfull. I think Amon Goeth was truly a crazy man. Maybe he heard voices or something. The fact that  he enjoyed killing people was really disturbing. I think he had feelings for his made Helen. She was a Jew and I think that really bothered him. I don't think he could ever admit that thought to himself.

    The Holocaust is something that could happen again. I wonder what would've happened to the rest of the world if Hitler had gone any further with what he wanted. Genocide was an idea that the world was sort of new to. I don't think anyone wanted to believe it. I guess that when the Holocaust started everyone thought it would be quick because things like this had happened before. No one was really taking it seriously because they probably thought this time would be just like the others. Only certain people knew it would be different. I still don't understand how it ended. I'm sure we talked about it in class but I don't remember. Did it happen all of a sudden? Was ending the war that easy? If it was then why would there be so many wars in the world? What is wrong with the human race? I don't think we were put on this Earth to fight.

    History often repeats itself. The Holocaust will not be forgotten. It's really hard to believe that this didn't happen too long ago. I don't think things will get this extreme in the times to come. I guess we could say we are more educated and less naive. We will be more prepared if things get too out of hand. We have been warned. I don't know what else we could do but use the Holocaust as an example of what not to do. Some Holocaust survivors are still alive to share their story but pretty soon we will have to be the ones to pass down the story.

    

"A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks - Parts 1 & 2 Review

 
       "A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks started out a little boring. The book does really good in setting up the story but I didn't like that it took so long to get to the actual story of hoe Landon fell in love with Jamie. I guess the two beginning parts actually had a lot to do with the story now that I reall think about it. Landon and Jamie live in a small town where everyone knows eachother. Landon's parents and Jamie's dad don't really have a nice history together.

    So it all started when Landon decided to take drama senior year. Jamie was in his class. The first day in that class Jamie got up off her seat to wave hello to everybody and she gave Landon a smile that made him actually look at her. He said that day he saw that she looked nicer, not prettier but nicer.

    Jamie was a very quiet girl and she didn't really have any friends. She was a very spiritual person since her father was a minister. Everyone at school made fun of her, even Landon. The teachers adored her though. Landon had never really talked to her even though they have been going to school together since kindergarden.

    So Landon first started talking to her because he needed help on his lines for the play. If he would've never decided to take drama that year then this story would've never been told. So when he first asked Jamie for help she said "Don't fall in love with me Landon", of course Landon took it as a joke because at that moment he would've never even thought of her as a close friend. Well somehow Jamie knew it would happen. I have no idea how. Maybe she had liked Landon for a very long time already. It seems kind of creepy tough, that she knew he would fall in love with her.

    Well the more time Landon and Jamie spent together the more he realized that she was just like any other person he knew. He had just never wanted to give her a chance. If he would've never taken drama he would've never even looked at Jamie twice. 
    Well a lot of guys are like that now a days. They base their feelings on appearences. Well at least teenage boys. Jamie was a very sweet and inoccent girl that started changing Landon. Landon didn't understand what was happening. He didn't understand how it was happening. He hadn't really takled to Jamie in years or something like that then suddenly she was changing him. He said that she was making look at life differently.

    When the time for the homecoming dance came along Landon didn't have a date. Jamie was his last option. I thought that was so messed up. She was his last option, that was the only reason why he asked her. He didn't want to show up at the dance without a date. Their relationship didn't start off as well as it could've but I hope Landon starts seeing Jamie for what she is like not for what she seems like.

    My opinion for the beginning of the book is very general since there hasn't been a lot to say about Jamie and Landons relationship. The plot is good but I can't wait to see how Jamie and Landon end up.Compared to the movie the book sets things up slowly. I wish they would've put a little more of the book into the story. I would've liked to see a little bit more of the Jamie in the book, in the movie. Landon also changed in the movie. He seems a lot meaner. Overall I liked both the book and the movie. Nicholas Sparks is a great author and I plan to read a lot more books from him after I finish this book. 

So I was reading through my old blog ...

    
    So I was reading through my old blog posts and they show that I haven't changed much. I still talk a lot about the same things. I mostly write about family and what is going on in my life. So that is when I see what I want to improve in, my goal, is expanding my thoughts. I want to start going deeper into my mind and write about more serious things. I doubt that I  will be able to but I'm going to try.
    Maybe I should write about current life issues, things that are important to the world. I see my blog as a place to vent out what I'm thinking, what I'm stressing about, but I want to change that. There are more important things in the world other than my thoughts. I know that I do think about those things but I don't really have an opinion on things that are going on in the world today. I think that is bad since I do care about those issues, but I know that I can't really do anything to help.
    My blog so far has mostly been updates. Things that go on in my head. There are a lot of other things in my head but my thoughts are so scrambled that I can only think of certain things at a time. I think what I write about also has to do with my surroundings. If I am alone in my room not working on anything but my blog I see that I think deeper about things. If I am in school listening to other people's conversations and trying to think deeper I just can't. Today is different though. I am putting more thought into this post. The room is very quiet compared to other days so it is easier to concentrate.
    I see that ideas haven't been coming easy to me lately. I have been in my own little world. I find that it is a lot harder to open my mind to more options on things to write about when I'm like this. I really do think about many things but they are not things I'm willing to share. I am a very closed person and I think that affects what I write about a lot. Maybe if I learn to open up ideas will come casually.
    I have always been a very closed person. You can know me for years but not see every side of me. It's not that I choose to act different around different people I just do. That really bothers me.
    So my goal is to open up to new ideas to write about. Going through my blog I saw that I wrote a lot about the same thing witch is mostly family, school, and myself. Hopefully I progress through the end of the year. Another goal is to expand my vocabulary. I've been trying to do that for a long time. Obviously I don't have a good strategy but I'm working on it.

" A Bad Boy Can Be Good For A girl" - Part 3

    The third part of the book was about a girl named Aviva. She was very different than the other girls in the beginning. She was into a lot of things. She was more sure of her self than the other girls. Even though she served herself to the guy "on a  silver platter." Her story didn't end up how I thought it would. It seemed like the guy really liked her. It wasn't until she told him she loved him that things started to go bad. He started to act weird around her. She didn't like it. She didn't understand why he was acting that way. How could saying "I love you" completely change the way you see someone? It doesn't make sense to me. Maybe it's because the world has evolved into a place where saying "I love you" doesn't mean anything. I don't think it actually would bother a guy if a girl said "I love you".
    Aviva was the kind of girl that was never in the "in crowd" and that didn't bother her. She had a happy life. When she became part of the "in crowd" she liked it. She never knew that it would be that way. She had people save her a seat at lunch. She had a complete different group of friends. She liked that the guy showed her off, introduce her to his friends, and took her out.
    I thought Aviva was going to be the girl to change the guy. It seemed like he actually had feelings for her. When they split up he had one of his friends to talk to Aviva, witch wasn't something he had done with the other girls. If he didn't want them then that was the end. There was no need to have a talk to say sorry. For Aviva he actually wanted to talk to her to explain why he was acting weird. He said that things were moving to fast. To Aviva it just seemed like an excuse but to me it seemed like he actually cared about her. What do you think?
    In the end you still see that the guy didn't change. There are still plenty of reasons to stay away from him.